Arguing.

Recently I am very busy, so I'm full of stress.
I can't control my feelings.
So I vented frustration on others, especially my boyfriend.

Although I understand it's not good, I can't stop....

I don't want hurt him by my frustration, so I decided not to meet him after a while.
It's very sad and hard for me, but I think this is good idea.

I wonder when my work project will be finished....
I hope this project finish soon.

I Don't Know the Reason, but....

I like Germany very much.
But I don't know the reason.

I often think that I wanna live there and wanna marry
German guy, hehe.

I can't speak, write, nor read Germany.
Although I can do that a little bit, it's not perfect.

Despite this, I wanna go to Germany and live there.

Sometimes I thinkl why I am in Japan, not in Germany.
It's very very strange :(

I wanna go to Germany soooooooooooooon!!!!!!!!!!!

A memorial service

Today morning, I watched a memorial service of Michel Jackson on TV news.

I have hardly listened to his music, but he is very very famous singer.
And I know his music well.

It's natural, so I don't need to write. But I wanna write this.
Someone's death is very very sad.
If someone is family or friends, it's very very sad and I can't describe beyond the words.
Even if someone is people who hasn't any relation with me directly, it's very very sad.

I felt sad and cried just a little bit from morning because of Micheal's news.
Taking this occasion to his death, I am going to listen to his music .


I am thinking of him and praying for him in this time of loss.

Lack of sleep.

I can't sleep well recently. I think it might be from stress.

Actually I only slept about a hour yesterday.
I wanna sleep, but I can't.
I wake up soon when I fall asleep :(

Should I go to see a doctor??


But I don't feel my body is not good.
Of course, I feel tired, but I think it's a big probrem.

When I finish now project, I wanna go trip to Germany!!!

Oh, it is 7th July today.
In Japan, we call today "Tanabata."
Tanabata is http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tanabata
or
http://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tanabata

If the weather is good, we can see the beautiful milky way.
But it's cloudy today. So I can't see it today :(
Haha, of course, I have to work until late.
So I can't see milky way even if the weather is good or not.
The weather has nothing to do with me :(

Beginning of week.

Today is a beginning of new week.
Maybe it'll be hard week for me again.
But I have to do my job, I actually don't wanna do that though.


In last weekend, I watched DVD of "Supernatural First season" with my boyfriend.
SuperNatural First season is very old, but it's nice for me.

Actually I watched this DVD in this winter, when I visited my friend in Germany.
But I couldn't watch all of them.

So I bought this DVD last month, and I was going to watch it. But I couldn't watch, because I was very very busy.


Further my boyfriend haven't ever watched before. He had wanted to watch it.
And he became a fan of Supernatural, hehe :)

I wanna buy another series of supernatural's DVD, but it's very expensive. So I think it takes long time for me to get one :(

Friday.

Finally, it's a Friday.
This week was very very severe for me, too.
Maybe this hard work seems to be continued about 2months.

Now it's 7:00am. And I have already been at my office.
Actually, I arrived at my office 6:45.
And I cleaned up office, made some coffee, checked e-mail, and I am writing this weblog.

Why did I come to my office so early??
There are some reasons. First, a person who always come to office earliest is absent today.
Next, earlier time is very very quiet in the office, because there is no person, so I can concentrate on my work.

Maybe I will go back to home about 23:00, so today is very very long day for me.
But I will do my best!!

Oh My God!!!

I haven't written this my weblog more over a year :(
Unbelievable!!!!

I will write this weblog as frequently as possible!!


But I'm very very busy recently.
I always go to my office at 8:00, and I go back to home at 23:00.
When I go back to my house, I just only sleep in bed.
And next morning, I wake up about 4:30.

I'm sick of this life.
I wanna rest, I need rest!!!!

So if I can take holidays, I will do many things I wanna do!!
The best thing I wanna do is going to Germany.
And I wanna meet my friends there!!